2016年4月4日星期一

Hard time I have been through in finding a good skin care porducts


I am going to talk about how hard I’ve been gone through in my journey of skin care.

Just a while ago, after trying and trying to improve my skin condition for years, I concluded that:
No one can escape from aging, not even celebrity;
 To achieve a perfect skin and the only cost are: MONEY & EFFORT!

But just about one month ago, I NOTICED I WAS WRONG about what I thought and found a way out for me to higher level of beauty!! 
It wasn’t really about just money and effort if you got the right product!! :D :D


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17 year-old: I was so dark then. Just using a simple face wash around RM10+, nothing else.
19 year-old: Still a RM10+ face wash, but I started to buy Garnier whitening cream costed RM20+. My skin became much brigher and fairer, and more people woo me. XD XD The 1st year of University, skin was still OK, just occasionally pimple-prone.


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20 year-old: My skin condition had a big twist. Due to stress, pimples are all around my face. Face wash gives me even more oil, whitening cream at least still brighten my face and lighten scars, but it gives me more pimples as well. T^T

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21 year-old: Until one day I walked into a pharmacy, a lady suggested me to take 3 good things which reversed my skin condition: Clinelle deep cleansing gel, Clindamycin gel and zinc tablet.
         Clinelle deep cleansing gel face wash has a 6-free secret (free from coloring, fragrance, lanolin, mineral oil, alcohol and comedogenic ingredient), so it is very suitable for oily and even sensitive skin, in fact, it is suitable for all skin types! It was so good for me at that time. I used 20cents size for one wash and it doesn’t dry my skin out, and it was not harsh at all if I repeatedly using it. No soap = No drying. I use to use repeatedly to let my skin feel skin!
        Clindamycin gel is a type of antibiotics gel, to kills the types of bacteria that is common found involve in pimples (acne). It was used as spot treatment on pimples. It worked just find for me A thick layer of it reduced a swollen big acne in a night!
        Zinc tablet to be eaten daily to help in wound healing. However I stopped it very soon as it was harsh on stomach and caused my vomit once.

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22 ~25 year-old: A routine of Clinelle deep cleansing gel and Hada Labo tonner (~RM49), my skin was clearer, but my skin easily get redden after sun exposure. I tried some product which is well known for pimple prone & sensitive skin, such as Avene emulsion (RM90+ for 30g) and Vichy (not cheap also), but things did not work out. Pimples still came to visit me always. I ALWAYS HAD AT LEAST ONE TO TWO PIMPLE ON FACE. There was no way to get rid of them. And u know, I was poor during students time, so no way to spend more on my face. 

 

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25 year-old: Finally I graduated and starting working! I got more money now. First thing I wanna change is my skin care routine! But I still didn’t start with expensive product. I just change to slightly higher price range which is still purchasable in Guardian or Watson. I started to buy skin care set which had good review, such as Clinelle set for oily skin, or Naruko tea tree set for blackhead-prone oily skin. I expected to have better result since I can really start a complete routine. It was around RM20+ to 40+ a bottle (Kind of forget). But they doesn’t work so well. I once thought they were so good on me, at least I was getting pimple-free, but it was just because I haven’t used a product which is better!


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26 year old: So due to the seduction of the beauty package, and during the first trial of facial wash, they put a don’t-know-what magic solution on my half face wash and had given a quite surprising effect, so I also start to have routine monthly skin wash at a beauty centre which has many branches in Malaysia & Singapore, called Adeline. The package wasn’t cheap too.  RM2000 for 10 times facial wash, and free 1 wash & 1 tonner. 

After I started to use the free Adeline face wash & tonner, it worked so AMAZING! First time I feel the differences!! The simple one puff sized 10 cents enough for one wash which make u feel your skin is totally fresh and clean, but also hydrated! Not like Clinelle which I used to repeatedly use it to feel clean. A little goes a long way! 150ml enough for 5 months use! The tonner worked pretty good though. Clarifying and hydrating!

The price of them were high. RM240 for a 150ml Adeline wash, RM240 too for 150ml Adeline wash. 10% for member price only if you bought at least two product.

I started to so so agree that, MONEY IS DEFINITELY NEEDED TO HAVE GOOD SKIN! The more expensive the product is, the better your skin will be.

 So then later I tried some other of their product, one of it was a scar lighting gel 30g for RM368! However it made my pores worse!

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Later, I watch a skin care video of my idol Michelle Phan about skin care and notice 


Basic Steps: 1.Cleanse 2. Treat 3.Tone 4.Nourish 5. Hydrate

TO ACHIEVE GOOD SKIN, YOU NEED EFFORT! 世上没有丑女人只有懒女人!Routine scrub and mask is a must. And not just wash and tonner. (which I used to do) Also don’t forgot serum and moisturiser. They are so so important because they play different roles.

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End of 26 year-old:
          Then I started to be cautious in buying new product. Read more review and study! Then I thought I was kind of BRILIANT to purchase things with GOOD REVIEW and DOESN’T FAILED ME!
-          Laneige Water Sleeping Mask RM77 – had a good review everywhere! Middle price range for me, working good but only if you apply a thick layer on my face. Satisfied and will considering buying again.

-          Innisfree Clay Mask RM40 – Super cheap price!! To be used 2-3 times a week! Don’t be lazy! Mask is a must!

-     Tony Moly 96% galactomyses essence RM208 for 120m -  it was being called a dupe of SK II treatment essence, as it contain 90% of similar content as SKII treatment essence! However it did work out a little to clarifying my skin, but just a little.








       











  I had clay mask every 2-3 days, and paper mask weekly, also facial treatment monthly if I am able to attend the appointment. 


This was the time my skin considered OPTIMUM with all the EFFORT & MONEY and I HAPPILY TOOK THIS PHOTOS, thinking that it was already so good on me. It is at least:
Glowy
Hydrated
Clarified without new acne
               
               
     
        Women won't get satisfied because of this right? How come all the celebrity have beautiful skin? They are human too, no one can escape aging, just because they have a lot of money to do that, but I don;t have! 

          Last month, I was hesitating to spend RM450 just for a bottle of SK II treatment essence. I once used a tester bottle of it, I thought it was completely amazing, like my skin without a pore! But it is a huge cost of it!              
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Until I found these…… J
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27 year-old: This set is called Blanc Detox set. They all are very gentle, containing Aloe Vera  is well known for soothing, very suitable for sensitive skin like me. The other ingredient is not cheap though! My friend who was a beauty consultant estimated a bottle of each to be at least RM200-300 worth per bottle according to its ingredient and I believed it! Coz none of the product I used before gave me this kind of result! Just in 90 minutes!

My face become so so so so firm instantly!
Look at the corner of my eye, mouth corner, face muscle, skin sagging region and eye bags! OMG!


                I think most effect came from Scrub (left on face for 15 mins) + Marine Mask (left on face for 45 mins). For showing effect in one time, the mask was pretty thick just for demonstration.
               
          I found these product when one day one of my husband’s friend came to my house and demo it on my half face! I kept tracing the result day-by-day. The effect last for around 4 days!

               
         After a week, I cannot tahan already! I just go and grabbed whole set!! I got a 35% off coz my husband purchased some other supplement for family previously, 8 big bottles of things costed only RM372 at my price! (At the same price as the useless 30g Scar lightening gel @@)





Now I have been using it for 3 weeks. Many of my friends said my skin is much firmer! Yoho!!!!!!!!


WHAT IS SO SPECIAL ABOUT THE PRODUCTS? HOW DO I USE THEM?

                They all contained stabilised aloe vera. “Stablized” means its aloe vera is kept so well that the lost of nutrient of aloe vera is minimised and it was tested to still retained near to 100% of nutrient after it was processed in bottle. This technique of stabilization is one of the copyright owned by the company. Aloe vera has medically showed a lot of effect, such as soothing, recovering, anti-inflammatory, antibacterial, antiviral, antivirus, and they are also journal stated by doctor for its anticancer effect.

Eye make up remover (for eyes and face): For the first time, I used a water-based make up remover but yet so effective. Aloe vera contain natural soap, called Saponin, so as you shake the bottle and pinch out the content lightly on the cotton pad, and rub the cotton pad, you will see foam, then you can start to rub gently on your face to removed dirts and oil. If you are a skin care lover, u surely already know that make up remover is a must after work everyday even if u don’t wear make up!




           Scrub: Oh I love this! Coz it’s truly a daily scrub I ever encountered. Most facial scrub contain synthetic particles or crushed walnut shells to achieve scrubbing effect, they are too harsh and harmful to our skin. But this Aloe Scrub contains Jojoba seeds where Jojoba is naturally round in shape and you can safely rub it on your face everyday. It is not recommended to rub so much if you have a sensitive skin, but u still can apply and leave it to let the Jojoba seed to dissolve and release the oil contained inside. For me, I will use it after make up remover daily, and rub for just 1-2 minutes to break the Jojoba seeds, then leave it throughout my shower!

Marine Mask: This is the power weapon! Very tight to be felt on face! It also contain Vitamin A, C and E!! Once Taiwanese artist Lin Zhi Ling said, “I apply mask everyday, is not to have a good skin condition for next day; Is to let the passer-by on the roadside to see her as 25 year-old when she get 40.” Well said. So I will just take it easy, if I am relaxed and free at home, I will just take a 5 to 10 cent size, and apply and leave it on my face for 45 mins after rinsing. If you take mask so so important like Lin Zhi Ling, but don’t have time everyday, you can just take a thick layer (maybe 7 times of 5 cents sized) for weekly mask. (Don’t worry, it is not expensive) Because it is near to skin color, so it is not obvious when you put it on face.

Aloe bath gelee (face & body wash): Again it is also a little goes with a long way,. I only used a 5 cent (Malaysian coin) size for one time wash. 250ml a bottle, my friend say she can used 1 bottle for 1 year!!

                Aloe First: It’s a spray. For pH balance, blemished and scars. It is to be used First before tonner. There was a testimony  of a patient with diabetic ulcer which the patient has seen 3 specialist and all 3 specialist said No Choice but to Amputate the limb to Knee Level, and finally he met his last specialist, the specialist gives me some oral supplement and using this Aloe Bath Gelee & Aloe First spray, and finally the patient get cured!

                Tonner: Nothing much to comment, I just ‘cincai’ put on my face everyday XD XD (“Cincai” means with no rules and manners)

                Epiblanc: It is special coz it’s a whitening gel that u can put on eyes too!

                Gelly: Huh! This stuff, u can burn your finger and don’t feel pain if you apply this on your finger. To be true! Coz it is super duper hydrating and very good for burn! Kind of a waste I put this good stuff on face? No la. It’s not expensive. It also contain Vitamin A, C and E! Wahahahaha… Good stuff on my face…..
               
              P/S: Just if you have a very very dry skin, try applying scrub or mask by mixing with Aloe Vera Gelly, it help hydrating and eliminate the stinging sensation.

WHY ARE THEY SO CHEAP WHILE HAVING GOOD QUALITY??   

                Then you must check out the company background. Forever Living is a brand from United State since 1987, and now present in 163 countries. Forever Living is responsible for the biggest world supply of both aloe vera (92.5%) and bee products. They have own supplements, skin and hair care products and cosmetics. Some of the skin care product is even like Garnier’s price but SK II’s quality. The reason why it is comparatively cheap is because they have their own aloe vera field which its size as 3 Singapore, has its own factory and directly sell to the consumer without any other party. Today when you see any Forever Living “shop” at roadside, it doesn’t belong to any boss who take the profit from Forever Living and sell to end-consumer, all of them are not actuallu shop, they are just centre owned by Forever Living itself to supply the product to consumers. Even if u do see some of the product sold at pharmacy, it will be not higher than its standardised price worldwide. One more thing which is interesting is, today if you join as a member of Forever Living in Malaysia, and u walked into a Forever Living centre in Dubai, you still get member price. The membership is lifelong and is not limited by the boundaries of country.

Forever Living Blanc Detox (for normal to oily skin, suitable for sensitive skin)
-        Aloe eye make up remove (for eyes & face) - 118ml
-        Aloe bath gelee (face & body wash) - 251ml
-        Aloe first (for blemish, scar, pH balance) - 473ml
-        Rehydrating tonner - 118ml
-        Aloe vera gelly (superb hydration) - 118ml
-        Forever aloe scrub - 118ml
-        Forever marine mask - 113ml
-        Forever epiblance (whitening for eyes & face) - 28.3g

CONTACT ME for info: Whatssap 017-7227033


If you have a pimple skin and wish for a turn with very small "modal", u can try just Bathh Gelee + Aloe First + Aloe Vera jelly.

If you have establish a good skin care routine where u are satisfied with, I may recommend you the Aloe scrub, Marine Mask and Aloe Jelly.

If you haven't find a good set of routine of you, whole set is your choice! Do not hesitate! :D :D

Garnier's price but SK2's quiality!!

Good Luck to all the beauty-to-be!


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SAY BYE-BYE TO YOU ALL!



2016年2月14日星期日

在政府医院的生产经历


                已经想写这篇文章很久了,但是带孩子的日子忙忙碌碌,只好在宝宝百日后的这个新年假记载一下还依稀记得的经历。
                宝宝的预产期 11 10 日。预产期的估算只是一个正常孕期的平均数就是 40周满;宝宝在37~42周间出世都算正常。听一些人说,工作量大、走动多,孩子也会比较活跃,比较早出世。所以我心里也有个底,孩子也许和同事一样38周多就出来了,而且也有可能不必等很久就进产房了。

                1029号睡前,我从椅子起来,阴道里有种炽热麻刺的感觉。孕末期时,身体上上下下都会有不同感觉的痛,比如:走路时下腹会有点像经痛沉沉的痛、躺下时如肚子上放了5公斤重物而剧烈低腰背痛、侧睡时盆骨部很深很深刺骨的酸痛车座坐超过15分钟中上部就开始非常非常的酸痛、还有右上腹部靠近胸腔的位置有很难受拥挤的感觉、偶尔一阵一阵剧痛,驾起车来,觉得痛得很难摆驾驶盘,这一点也不夸张!甚至还有一整天胸口痛和喘。但是这些形形色色不同部位的痛都重复发生,只有那阴部热热刺刺的感觉,确实在第38周第一次出现。心理有点预感,宝宝会不会是要来了?
                宝宝要来,有很多迹象。最明显的就是出血、破水和剧痛,更仔细的还有可能反胃感减少、呼吸困难渐渐减少等等,情况因人而异。不过还有一个很有趣的,叫“nesting instinct”,直接翻译就是“筑巢本能”,妈妈会因孩子要到来,本能上地,开始打扫、准备宝宝的床等等。我记得就在进入第38周前的那个周末,我跟我老公发脾气,硬是吵着要把宝宝的床架装好推进房间。吵得我还哭了。后来回过神来,跟老公说,难道是nesting instinct? 孩子的姑姑说,也许下个礼拜的今天,走进我们的房间就能看到宝宝在床上了。
                1030日,午夜3点,我起来上个厕所,再躺回床上。心里给自己鼓励:“要是你要来了,妈妈也会好好把你生出来的”。肚子突然使了个劲儿,一滩水留了出来,我很惊讶地又跑到厕所检查,是不是漏尿?因为漏尿和羊水破最大的差别就是分量,所以我把湿掉的内裤换了,又在房间里徘徊,观察情况。那时心情有些紧张,老公也在睡觉。后来又有一大泼水湿了裤子,我立刻把老公叫醒,换了卫生棉和松宽的长裤,带着早已准备好的行李去到最近的政府医院。
                没有想到自己会是羊水先破。老公说我一点都不像是要去生孩子。我在急诊室外等待时还开心的拍照。我们俩又紧张又兴奋! 但是屁股上的水是开始溢得很尴尬。医生叫我进出量血压时,我还很怕把椅子弄湿我起身时,看到皮革椅上一大片水印。 @@

           到了妇产科病房,亲切的HO 跟我检查,说开了1cm,解释了入院程序,我就正式入院了。我在等待的时候,他们给了我病人装。上衣是纽扣的,下半身是sarong式的布。我换了好几回卫生棉,最后我放弃了。因为不到3分钟它就完全湿透了,那你给我几百片都不够啊。所以我整个沙龙湿塔塔的。
来回等待后已经是6点了。老公帮我提行李进病房,我被带到另一个房间做检查,老公却不能跟上,只能呆在我的病房。(PS:因为我是政府牙医,可以免费住进双人房,我自己upgrade成单人房。)她们把一个拳头般大的仪器放在我平躺的腹部上,并且用一个布绳绕过腰部绑起来绑完了就走了。虽然护士有闲聊几句,但是内容都是孩子是男的女的啊、怀孕几周,没有人解释那是干什么的和我要等多久。我也不能随便移动,因为只是布绳轻轻固定,我稍微移动仪器就会掉下。并且护士叫我把手机关掉,避免干扰仪器。所以我跟老公是完全失联的。我看着陌生的仪器显示频上数字在跳,印出像心电图纸那样的高低频率。只怪我之前posting懒得读妇产科,后悔也来不及了。我一个人检查室呆了一阵,最后受不了了,我又开启手机,也不知道要让老公等到几时。与其让他干等,不如他先回家休息。这是第一个觉得政府医院让人无奈的地方。不被解释自己被做了什么,不知道自己在等什么,也不能联系家属。大约30-40分钟后,有HO进来看了图标说ok,我就被送去病房了。
                虽然一整晚没睡,可是那段时间真的不太睡得下。陆续睡一点儿又醒了,在家的老公也是一样。
                不过这个时候,在一个人的房间里,也是感到无助。因为我是医生(牙医)。觉得对病人的交代是很重要的。我不知道自己下一步要怎么做,什么时候会再有一声你敢进房交代些什么,或是我什么时候我应该alert医务人员、我其实在等什么又什么时候会进产房?
                早上8点多,阵痛开始来了。我开始自己算阵痛之间间隔的时间长短。需要算宫缩时间长短这点知识我还有。但是什么时候我该走出去叫人来?还好有几次有护士进来量血压和送早餐时,我逮到机会问到底什么时候该叫医生。护士说: “当每次阵痛相隔5分钟以内时。”另外一个护士告诉我:“当觉得想大便时也是宝宝要出来的时候,千万不要上厕所。”对,是护士跟我说,而且还是要我自己主动问!而不是医生交代!
                好吧……原来早上specialistward round,他们不小心把我遗忘了……他们漏掉我这件房间……(早上ward roundsupposed专科会每张床的都走一轮,看过病人,然后决定要做什么。)难怪我觉得很奇怪,为什么没医生来看我。=.= 9点多才有一个HOclerk我。(“clerk”就是问诊的意思,要问清楚病人的资料、病史等等)她有一点blur,她说她刚进妇产posting一、两个礼拜。她看错资料写错,另外一个在这里呆比较久的HO就讲她,语气不怎么耐烦,就在我的病桌前。那个脸色不怎么好的医生说完她又走了。我就跟那个嫩嫩弱弱的HO小聊,她就大概问诊。我说我有scoliosis(脊椎骨歪);她问我有什么症状吗,我指着右臀说那里会疼。她愣了几秒,不知道想要怎么写,我就帮她,我说”Left hip pain”。(我也3年半医科,形容症状还不是问题)她笑笑说,反倒是我教她写。后来,她也这样走了。起初我还天真的一位specialist会补看我,太笨了啦,怎么可能!?
                所以那个HO也是什么也没交代,匆忙的进来写下case note就走了。那个刚才骂她的印度女医生微开我的房门,人也没站进来我房间里,说:“Tadi awak buka 1cm sahaja, so lama lagi lah.”话说完就掉头了。Errrr…..我心想,你就这么肯定lama lagi? 另外一个华人女HO比较有礼貌,她进来说:“如果有什么问题,需要我们帮你check,随时都可以的。”虽然很有礼貌,但是instruction仍然不明确。我依然不知道接下来要做什么,就只能把送早餐的护士的话当指南了!!
                后来友人来看我。因为我们都是医生,不用探访时间也可以自由穿梭病房。她们很好心地带书给我看、帮我买食物、陪我聊天,不过他们呆了大约2小时长,我实在非常累,非常需要休息。毕竟只睡了2小时啊!而且,这时阵痛也越来越强烈……痛不来的时候,我生龙活虎的在床上坐着大声说话,痛起来时,我半步路都走不到,只能停在原地,半字都难出,或在床上弯着腰,缩着肚子,才能忍过痛。大约12点时,朋友走了。我已经很疲倦很疲倦了。阵痛也开始让我不能移动。我卷着身体睡着了……等着老公探访时间来看我。
                老公和家婆来了,推门我就醒了。我非常睏,但睡得不深,而且痛得觉得有要大便的感觉。但是每次痛的间隔不是很规律。有时5分钟一次,有时20分钟才一次。我当时又倦又痛,也思考不了是不是要叫医生这回事。老公问我觉得如何,我说有想大便的感觉,好像得叫医生了,我们决定还是该叫医生了。
                护士就叫我到病房柜台前的一个房间外排队,被医生检查。有好几个孕妇在等。走出来都说“开了x公分”、“还没那么快之类的。我走进房里,一位马来女医生(MO)第一句话问:有没有10分钟内痛3次?我说:没有。”她说:“那你其实还不需要检查。”我还以为我要这样走回病房了。不过那是我也已坐在检查床上,她也换着手套,她还是帮我检查了。并且我告诉他我有想大便的感觉。检查之下,她说“4cm,要进产房了。”好突然!那时是2pm,距离我羊水破的时间不到12小时。 很多人第一胎都要等上一天以上,开1公分也不需马上入院,因为也许还有好几天。但是我是羊水先破,这算emergency24小时内把宝宝生出来为佳,避免感染。
                真是托医生的“so lama lagi lah 和“那你其实还不需要检查”的福,我很快地进了产房。
我坐在轮椅上,被护士推出病房。这个时候,我还来得及上facebook poststatus,然后把手机和钱包交给老公。因为他们不给带手机进产房。老公也跟说推我的护士说,要陪同一起进产房。护士问:“Dah dengar ceramah ke belum?”我们说还没,她说要先听ceramah,然后老公就被拒在门外,我就这样进产房了。
我被送到一个产房里。因为要求single room病房,所以产房也是自己一个人的。和早上一样,那个小仪器用布绳绑在我的肚子上,行动被那个很容易掉的仪器束缚了。一位HO进来把我的床prop up 45度。我身体仰着,45度半躺,所以我只能为了那个我那时还不知道那是阅读什么的仪器,仰着我的身子,不能因痛而移动。进产房之前,我都是上半身微弯,压着肚子来减轻痛的,现在这状况,那该怎么办?我问HO,我不能平躺吗?她说,不能。然后他们就都走了。

那个时候我开始感到无助。肚子开始越来越痛。我看不到任何人,没有护士,没有医生。他们没交代我应该怎么做,什么时候会再有人过来。我就自己一个人痛,和张望布帘外是否有人经过。也不知道老公会什么时候进来。我没有手机。
仰着身体和不能移动,真的让我的痛更加难忍。痛是一阵一阵来的。来个半分钟、一分钟,又散去。但是那短短的几十秒,是真的很可怕的。曾经读过书本上,有很多可以舒缓宫缩痛的体位。比如说,面和肚子朝下,抱着枕头,卷曲着身体,那样可以减轻疼痛。以前有一次半夜在家肚子痛得很厉害,我试了这方法真的很有效!
痛又来了,我移动身体,尝试把身体转向后,让面朝下。想不到,越动越痛,原来宫缩痛起来时,像流沙,你越是挣扎,你的痛苦就越深。我痛到无法忍受,开始呻吟大叫,这是终于有一位护士和医生冲了进来。医生的第一句话骂道:”This is not the way how to reduce pain!” “Then how?!” 她说深呼吸!我用痛苦紧张的情绪,大力深呼吸。
孕晚期经历的各种部位的各种疼痛,我都可以仔细叙述,唯独这个痛,我完全无法用文字形容。我要求打局部麻醉(Epidural block)。那些产房里的医生开始议论纷纷,不是很愿意让我打。但是他们不能说什么,因为选择还是病人的权利,还有交托给麻醉科的医生看他们怎么处理。于是他们交了麻醉科的医生,叫我等等。那时我的老公也还没进来。
期间,我的尿非常非常急。刚好有两位医生进来弄仪器。我说,我很想尿尿。那位女HO听了好像不知道该怎么办呢的样子,然后跟另外一位医生反应说“她想尿尿”。另外一位医生没给反应,然后他们就都没有给我反应的出去了。
过多几分钟,另一位医生进来,我问我这个情况能上厕所吗,我真的很想尿尿。她说等下那东西来给我尿。结果我又被糊弄过去了。并没有人拿什么东西来。我继续忍。
麻醉科医生终于来了。他问我是不是真的要打epidaural block,我叫他跟我解释一下副作用。我记得那个时候,一个很剧烈的痛刚好又上来了。我听着他的解释,手背靠在自己的额头上,两眼微合,眉头皱得很深。那个时候我已经学到,痛来的时候,你只能仰着身体的话,你就让你的身体瘫着,完全别动。我不能形容那是sharp paindull painthrobbing paincolicky,还是什么样感觉的痛。我只知道那是很强很强很酸很酸,从前面的下腹部,到腰背一整圈的剧烈疼痛,比可怕的经痛还大幅度,我的双腿酥麻好似瘫痪,全身无力冒着冷汗。那个感觉让人秉着呼吸。不能说话,不敢动。好比发高烧时全身酥软、辛苦的感觉。身体近乎要开始抽搐了。想着,这么样的痛,等会儿还有力推吗?也不知道是不是自己有scoliosis的关系,才特别痛;但是每个人分娩的痛楚都是不一样的。尽管医生说因为我有scoliosis,也许epidural block 对我带来背痛副作用的可能性会大些,但是就在那我痛得要开不了双眼的那刻,我看着在解释的他,我就点头了。
这位医生很有技巧,打的时候一点也不痛。我也终于舒服下来。一根管子插在我的背部,麻醉药依着医生调的剂量慢慢输进去。打完后,老公也进来了。
原来老公被拒在门外候,就没有人在理他。护士只是敷衍,没有人会去叫他听什么ceramah,他也不能够进产房范围。幸好碰上一位他认识的医生,才把他带了进来。那个时候,他也在外面苦等了1小时半。没有电话能联系,在产房外的家属都只是干等的份儿。
他们要他在我打完block了才进来,所以他没看难道我痛苦呻吟的样子。不过他在就好。
有了麻醉我终于舒服多了。我和他都睏了,我躺着想睡。他也靠着我的床上休息。
不过我们还是讨论同个问题,什么时候要做什么?什么时候该叫医生来看?
他认识的那位医生(HO)也进来了。他看我很睏,给我氧气罩。然后检测仪器。一起上一直跳着数字,有时高,有时低。我们问了他,才知道那是在记录子宫的收缩频率,数字高为力度强。
阵痛又越来越强了。医生给麻醉剂量开始被痛超越了。痛一阵一阵来越来越强烈。老公问他朋友,到底什么时候需要给医生看。他才去叫了负责我的医生。检查后发现已经开了10cm,宝宝的头发都看到了!赶紧那个HO和我老公的朋友HO,还有一个接生护士,一起准备。他们叫我感觉到宫缩痛时就大力挤。
                忘了!之间还有一个小插曲,一位医生进来说要把我羊水搓破。她尝试过后次发觉羊水已经破了。不好意思,也许我应该提醒你的?
第一波阵痛来了,我用力挤,护士、医生和老公都说很鼓励的话,但是只过大概几十秒,阵痛就过了,我就停止用力。第二回也是,阵痛时间非常短。老护士拿了见到剪了下去,我不感觉疼。第三波来了,老护士“Pandainya! Lagi sikit! Lagi sikit”,医生也是一样,老公就紧握我的手,抚着我的头,说:“很棒!看到头发了!快出来了!”听到大家鼓励,我使尽全身的力!我看书和视频说,要把宝宝挤出来要照“吸—推—吸—推—吸—推————”,不能连续使劲,不然很快没力。但是医生护士们要我连续拼命使劲,也给我很多鼓励,更尤其是那句“Lagi sikit”,我听了就不敢断气地拼命挤、拼命挤!出力得用我的喉咙发生到沙哑了,这样用全身的力使了大约2分钟吧,宝宝出来了!
老公说:“是个女的!”我喜极而泣,泪滑了下来。
我的声音沙哑了,喉咙很痛。
他们把宝宝抱过来,但是我看不亲她的脸,因为我的身子卡在半躺的高度,也没有力气把她的正脸转过来。只是从她头顶看下去,我说:“像你,对吗?”我累透了。老公和宝宝一会儿就被叫出去了。护士医生来清理后,我倒在床上累瘫了。孩子应该去清洗了吧,而老公是出去产房范围外了吗?我不知道。但是我好累。全身无力,尤其是腿。我躺着休息。休息了也许12个小时吧。到麻醉师来把管子抽走了,宝宝也被抱给我,不久后,我被推出去了。
产房部的大门外,好大的人群!原来全部与产房内失联的家属,都在外面干等。连我的家婆的大姑也在,老公也是被命在外头等到地老天荒。
我和宝宝躺在有轮的病床,被推回病房了。产房区和病床区的大门只差大约20步的距离。病房只有老公能进的。所以家婆和姑姑在外头等的45小时,只能看我和宝宝这一眼。进房我立刻去尿尿。那真的是我人生中最长的一次尿,不知道几分钟。真的没有忍过那么大量的尿。也许麻醉多少减少了想尿的感觉。
但是老公也很晕了,头疼。他回去休息了。我miss掉了医院的晚餐时间,家婆他们就打包了托门口的guard送进来。
我和眼睛还没开的小宝宝一起在单人房里。她偶尔哭闹,我就抱抱摇摇。其实护士们很好,会进来教我怎么哺乳,但是就怎都上不了手。宝宝也一直哭闹。我拿一堆毛巾围着她,她才又睡下。身子很弱,像生大病一样,全身酥软虚弱,而且腰酸背痛,行走起来像七老八十的缓慢。自然产被剪了缝合的伤口,就在肛门往前一点,人站直时的正下方。也就是说,每当坐下,都是坐在伤口上。病床相当高,高过我屁股的高度,虚弱加上伤疤,爬上床很难。而且这病床竟然没得调整高度,天啊。我还以为把孩子生出来后,躺下就不会有那么强的背痛。我错了。背痛加剧。我躺下时痛得不得了!侧也是。我只好坐着睡。宝宝时不时哭闹,她在有轮的婴儿床里,我上下床抱她实在很辛苦,最后我把她放在我的床上。她整个晚上不知为什么的哭闹,我又喂不了奶。要是放下,不久后她又会醒来很宏亮地哭啼。我只好整晚把她放在我的肚子上坐着睡。孩子出世都没吃到东西,我喂不了,也不知道自己有没有奶,又怕宝宝饿了。她不停哭闹,已经一晚没睡的我,用完力气生孩子了,又是一晚没睡。漫漫长夜,我不知所措地又精疲力竭地度过。接近清晨我才有比较长的睡眠时,又被一直进来的护士打搅了。
这一夜,真的很煎熬。但是抱着他还是温馨的。前一晚她还在我肚子里过,那一夜,她在我肚皮上过。
出院前,我被叫去检查的房间被一位女医生检查阴道就出院了。我记得她很粗鲁,一个心理准比也没有给,很粗鲁的检查,什么也没有,就说声“好了”。一点manship也没有。…………
总结对政府医院的服务,护士们都很亲切助人,医生就不一定。因为我是医生,我觉得病人有应该知道她们身上发生什么、将要进行什么,这是我们的责任来告诉病人。对病人的指示也应该详细对病人的分析,也应该专业 (比如一概的说“你还要等很久”,就很不专业);对人要有manship,因为人是人。连想尿尿都完全被无视、为了固定仪器位置而承受更多的痛、没有更多的心灵支持,这些都并非人道。那残旧的床位病人带来不便就不提了。主要是那种无助感。如果还在政府医院生,我一定签at own riskform,不会留院!我希望,下一胎能在私人医院生。

怀孕还不是最辛苦的。分娩和产后的痛,真的不想再来第二次!